I woke up this morning, grabbed my phone, and sure enough the screen saver displaying my countdown to Cabo say 101 days. The day has arrived, the day I'm suppose to turn this "Fat Friend" into a calorie counting, exercising, water drinkin enthusiast.
So what do I do, I hit snooze and catch a few more zzzz's for what I'm sure will be a most exhausting day, after all at some point today I have to make all 197 lbs of my body move in a manor some like to call exercise, but I endearingly refer to as HELL.
When I finally drag my butt out of bed, I head towards the scale, kick it on with my big toe, and held my breath as I get on. Yep, just as I had thought.. 197 still.. this is a very familiar number. If I lived in a TV show, I imagine a theme song coming on, probably that Brady Bunch song the kids all sang "A time for change" except I don't have the voice changing issue Peter Brady dealt with. My "time for change" is my weight.
I remember there was once a time where every time I looked in the mirror I saw a giant women, and in reality, I was very fit. Now for some odd reason I see a fit women, but reality is VERY different. How did I manage to trick my mind? My eyes? for gods sake my pants?
For far too long I've been tormenting innocent pairs of pants by force feeding my over sized body into my desired size of pants, I'm truly a beast for doing such acts. However as cruel as it may be, I'm gonna keep doing it until they fit.
My hope is that tonight's Hell session (exercise), will be the first of many. Soon my days as a tyrant, harming clothes of all kinds will end, well at least for the size 10 that is....
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Come on, momma! You can do this! We are going to Cabo in October/November and I have the same goal. I am running my first 5k on Saturday and it's something I never thought I would do but I can hardly wait to add it to the "things I have done" list. Find things you enjoy doing to get healthy and then it isn't so hellish, trust me, I know.
ReplyDeleteYou are the Queen! And while you are a beautiful 197 pounds, best of luck on your quest. I know the feeling and will see if I can try to keep up in support.
ReplyDeleteOh girl do I so hear you about being the fat friend, it sucks!! I wish you the best of luck on your journy. Im hoping to join the same Hell as soon as my body recovers from this whole baby birthing thing, lol.
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